My Second Day Without You

 

Every day I have had a reason to get out of bed. Not work or anything like that, I mean a reason, a purpose for me. The dogs, the children and Cola.

The dogs are gone, just Snowy left and she is the quietest most undemanding dog I have ever had in my life. The children are adults and now Cola is gone.

This morning was the weirdest feeling in the world. 

Cola was always the first thought of my day and I didn't realise that until this morning. Before I got out of bed my thoughts were of him, when I would go down to see him, what was the weather like, did he want to go out or stay in, what were other people doing with their horses, what time do I bring him in.....

The horror of life without him is starting to dawn on me.

Then I saw this from John Bride.

Angel card of the day

Today is a time to take stock of what you have in your life that you are grateful for. Life recently has been more than turbulent and we can find ourselves replaying the story; memory and worries that only in time create even more of the same situations.
To create harmony in our world we need to create a sense of appreciation for what surrounds us. Feel the happiness you have for this day, your family, children, friends and so forth. Spirit and those you love in the spirit world also ask you today to Remind yourself of the good times; replay the happiness you shared, find true joy in the memories of love you had and have. It will shift your life from worry to wellness, it will create a positive outlook that will allow you and those you love to flourish and grow; in doing this you’ll know better days are coming for all

Such a great message.

Be thankful.

My letter to Cola in Heaven;

My dearest dearest boy,

Thank you for sharing your beautiful life with me. Your sense of humour, your love and gentle ways. Your patience and compassion.

I know I always whispered to you "I love you, have a good day" as I turned you out and I loved tacking you up and walking out with you I loved your reaction to everything you saw, I noticed it all.

You are my bestest friend in the world and I will never get used to life without you but I know that you are there on a different plane, young again free of pain, no more grey hairs or itchy skin when your coat changed with the seasons.

I loved you like you were part of me, more than that, you were the best part of me.

Always there for me when I needed you, no words required just a connection of two souls.

I love you, I love you, I love you and love never ever dies. I will miss you forever but we will meet again one day in a better place.

Just thank you Cola. Thank you for coming into my life, Thank you for all of the lessons you taught me. Thank you for being my reason why. Thank you for loving me no matter what and thank you for being able to be yourself with me - no acts no pretence.

I will always be grateful for the random way you came into my life and filled my heart with the deepest love.

I love you, have a good day my boy.

Mum xx